Friday, January 7, 2011

Apparently...Not Much Changes In A Year

I am not a 'LIST' person. There, I've said it.

I know that I am more productive when I work from a list...but I don't like making the list. It is overwhelming to me.

For example, I know from experience that it is so much easier and less time consuming to shop from a grocery list. But in order to make a grocery list, I have to (1) decide on a menu; (2) go through the recipes and list the ingredients and (3) check the pantry to see what items are already in stock. And then, (since I tend to create more work for myself) I usually rewrite the list in groupings (produce, freezer, dairy, etc.).

Needless to say, I usually buy groceries without a list. I would rather wander the aisles 'browsing' for something that looks good at the last minute than take the time to do all the prep work. (Not that I truly would "rather" do it that just overwhelms me to plan the former so I end up doing it the browsing way most times.) reiterate, I am not a 'LIST' person.

Even though we are now 7 days into 2011, I am still struggling with setting goals for 2011.

Is it the exhaustion of just thinking about everything that needs to be done? (I do have a very long list in my mind.)

OR is it the fact that guilt piles on me like those Buckeyes on the Razorbacks during the Sugar Bowl every time I start thinking about it? (Oh my at the things I SHOULD have been doing but am now so far behind in!)

OR is it that I fear failure in living up to what I write down and attempt? (If you write it down, you have to do it or risk someone finding out you tried and failed!)

OR is it that I need to just rely on the Lord for guidance instead of a 'To-Do List'? (Having quiet time just to check it off a list does little to no good. I have found that out the hard way more than once.)

OR could it be because so many of the things that I want to accomplish contradict each other? (For instance, one is to slow down...but another is to spend more time with family and friends...and another is to go on an international trip with my husband this year to celebrate our 30th anniversary.)

So many bloggers have posted their 'Word' for the year, their 'Scripture' for the year; their 'Mission Statement' for the year or even a simple list of goals. I read their posts and think, "Yeah, that's good!" But that is as far as it gets for me. I am feeling like a bobber that has broken free and is just drifting in the Gulf of Mexico.

I did find some solace in my devotional reading yesterday.

"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven." Ecclesiastes 3:1

I am trying to hold fast to those words...but I was little disconcerted when I found this post from almost exactly one year ago. I guess not much has changed in my life in the past year. So, where do I go from here?

This isn't a pity party. It is just me being honest with you about where I am at this time in my life. I am trying to "do what I know needs to be done" as Gretchen Rubin says in her book The Happiness Project. I put up something that needs to be put away when I walk in a room. I am trying to follow a morning and a night-time routine (but it takes me forever to get ready in the mornings now!) I am attempting small steps, I am just having a hard time with the larger ones.

I would love to hear your comments on how you deal with setting goals. (not resolutions! Heaven knows I can't keep those past January 15!)


Brenda said...

I hear you have so many folded lst not used do the same at store...your doing good have not thought of goals no Word,statement yet. just floating till we get Mom better and home. Then we will have Christmas and think about New Year. Nothing is wrong with Ecc 3:1. Love you B

Stacy said...

first of all - I HAVE to have a list at the grocery store, because if I don't then I come home with stuff I don't need and forget things I do need - ha - like dog food - I know Boone wouldn't like that :)

secondly - I feel it is better to try and fail than to never try at all - you know - it is not a guilt thing - it is a "wow" this would be cool to do and if I can't do it - then oh well, it wasn't meant to be - ha!

thirdly - I totally believe in living in the moment - BUT I need to have something to look forward to in the future........ truly it is ok if I write something down and then it changes - just wasn't meant to be - and that is fine - again - NO guilt!

and as you know - I have my 2011 project list - things that need to get done around LAST3 Ranch - but this year, I don't have a theme or a Scripture of the year or a verse of the year - now that feels strange - but I do have this - 2011 will be SO much better than 2010 - it HAS to be!! :) love you!

Anonymous said...

Making lists is fine, setting goals..wonderful. Not fulfilling those goals, it doesn't matter. Sometimes the goals you set are not what God wants you to do, he puts other things in your way and you then can see what He has in store for you. I was going to retire last year or the year before, I can't remember now...anyway IF all goes well I will retire June, 2012. If it doesn't go well, then so what, it is just another goal that God has other plans for. Trust Him and everything else will fall into place. Love ya'll Aunt Fran